How often do I run around like a blue-a**ed fly trying to figure it all out and make all of the ends meet? I don’t know how often, but from time to time I get pulled up and remember that what I need to be doing is not-doing.
I had a conversation with someone the other day who sometimes feels that when he is videotaping his son’s achievements or taking photos while on a hike that he is slightly removing himself from the situation. He wants more of being present in his life.
I found this poem that I had heard reference to a few years back which really sums it up.
Once there was a man who filmed his vacation.
He went flying down the river in his boat
with his video camera to his eye, making
A moving picture of the moving river
Upon which his sleek boat moved swiftly
toward the end of his vacation. He showed
His vacation to his camera, which pictured it,
Preserving it forever: the river, the trees,
the sky, the light, the bow of his rushing boat
behind which he stood with his camera
preserving his vacation even as he was having it
so that after he had had it he would still
have it. It would be there. With a flick
of a switch, there it would be. But he
would not be in it. He would never be in it.
– Wendell Berry
I had a great conversation just this evening with my friend Buzz and quilt artist Sherri Wood about improvisation in quilt making and how that translates to making conversation and living one’s life. That there is a starting point and some sort of structure, but after that you make it up as you go along. Yet keeping it in response to the significant Other(s) and the physical environment/materials around you.
Sherri talked about how in tango, that the dancers keep an awareness of the space between their bodies while they are dancing and that they dance with that space. It reminded me of nurturing the space between, in any relationship.
Somehow all of this links back to the same place and all belongs on the same page. Not quite sure exactly how! I’m just really grateful for the people who are willing to come into my life and be just who they are and who accept me just as I am.