My word for 2019 is ‘surprise’.

surprise (n.)
from Old French surprise “a taking unawares” (13c.), from noun use of past participle of Old French sorprendre “to overtake, seize, invade” (12c.)

I often like to plan things out and can be a bit of a control freak. This comes from a childhood need to try and create a sense of safety in a dysfunctional, often chaotic household.

But this year I am willing to let <some> things go where they may and to make the space for the unknown to emerge.