Healing Skirt I

I took a Healing Skirt Course in Jan – April 2023 with Angharad Barlow. 

I was intrigued but didn’t know what to expect. 

After many years of making artwork to process my relationship with my dad, I knew that I wanted to make a garment about my mother, who died when I was 16.  I anticipated that it would be a pain-filled and traumatic experience. I felt the challenge of being in a group of women, however, it felt like a safe space to be vulnerable.

As the course unfolded, part of me wanted a template/pattern to follow. Most of the others were upcycling a skirt or blouse. Throughout the course guided meditation journeys were really helpful to get in touch with my subconscious. It was great to do this in a group and be witnessed and to witness other’s discoveries.

My initial idea was to make a circle skirt based on one my mother wore in a photograph of her and I taken when I was a baby. 

On paper, I designed a circle skirt to look like a sundial, bought a vintage pattern from the 1950s and cut out the fabric; then ended up making something completely different.   In the Healing Skirt course, I had the space to think I knew, then didn’t know, then finally ended up knowing (what to make). 

I kept picturing the perfect skirt that I might find in a charity shop, then finally found the perfect one in March.  This is when my ideas came together and I made mine with an appliqued sun, flowers, swallows flying and I handstitched the words ‘(You) Put love into everything that you do’ on it.  This was something my mom said to me when I was very young.

So my skirt wound up being happy and beautiful. 

I realized that my deep love of swallows began when I was in my mother’s arms in that long ago time.  We were at Mission San Juan Capistrano, where swallows return each year in the summertime.  This would have been my first and probably only time seeing swallows in California.

I eventually made my Sundial Circle Skirt which I’ll write about in a future post.

The Dawning of a New Year

Hello 2024!

It feels good to be on the horizon of a new year. Since turning 60 last August I’ve had the feeling that I’m on a plateau. A good place where I’m no longer striving. I know who I am and where I’m setting my sights. 

I have no huge plans or changes in direction ahead. Just a gentle unfolding of each day and my commitment to following the path that is revealing itself to me, one step at a time.

I hope that you are finding clarity and are in a good place on your journey.

Honoring where I am

Every cloud has a silver lining.

I remind myself of this when I’m going through dark times.

I’m enjoying the mellow place where I’m currently residing.
Everything feels copacetic and there are no anxious corners. Everything feels in sync. I feel grounded and confident about being right where I am and following the trails opening before me.

I appreciate this time period because some strings of days l feel really unsure about everything. I doubt myself and question where I am, where I’ve been, where I’m going. Instead of feeling proud about my accomplishments, I look at all that I haven’t done.

I used to view and experience the uncertain times as ‘not good’ and the confident times as ‘good’. If only I could feel confident about myself all the time! But I am always changing. When I can be gentle with myself and give myself extra care and reassurance in the ‘down times’ they won’t affect me in the same way. Likewise, when I am in the ‘up times’ I can step forward into taking gentle risks such as downloading that application or looking into those new textile techniques that have been intriguing me.

I am always changing. I know I’ll feel that way again. And then I’ll feel this way again. The most important thing is to pay attention, to check in with myself, and to honor where I am.

Pelofv

My quilt Pelofv has been to and returned from the Festival of Quilts in Birmingham, England.
At 2.5 metres high I wasn’t able to see it hung until I went to the quilt show.

Back of Pelofv

The front of the quilt took me over two years to complete. I pieced the back in about one and a half days! I enjoyed the process and felt like I was a dinner party hostess arranging a guest list & seating diagram, choosing colors and shapes that would have good conversations with one another. The back has elements of the Mvskoke Creation Story. I intend to paint some words onto the back later on.

Pelofv, 252 x 140cm

The quilting which holds all three layers together was a very organic process. I often didn’t know what I was going to do until I started each section. For the borders, I quilted a stylized nod to the Eastern Woodlands floral patterns.

The border, front and back

I always love seeing how quilting shapes look on the front and the back.

Hvse :: Sun, front
Hvse :: Sun, back
Quilt label with a grackle printed onto organza

For exhibitions, I have to be quite concise with my description. I’m writing the script for a short film about this quilt, its genesis, and all of the meaning that it holds.

Pause and experiment

This week I’ve been back to work on an art quilt l began making in May 2021.

My studio

Pelofv is a Mvskoke word that means ‘woods with a creek running through them’. I’ve been using this design in different art media for the past several years since my first visit to my homelands in what is now the Southeastern United States. I’m really pleased with the trees that I cut out and pinned up yesterday using some of the batik fabric l bought at Quilts Unlimited in Wytheville Virginia last summer.

When l began this quilt l cut a pair of Horned Water Serpents from warm batik fabric. The thing is the color isn’t quite right.

So I’ve chosen some blue green silk that’s much better. Only now I need to paint or appliqué or stitch into it. Or all three! So I’ve avoided working on it for the past 24 hours.

The thing is that I get super uncomfortable when l don’t know how to do something I’ve never done before. Totally unrealistic l know, but full disclosure here. So I’ve decided to give myself permission to pause and experiment. This is a big deal for this perfectionist!

Elevenses

I’ve been playing around this morning with some Pebeo textile markers and Setacolor textile paint l bought in Bristol a couple of weeks ago at Cass Art Store. I still feel anxious and like l have to rush and get on with it and get those Horned Serpents up there. But I’m trusting this slow process.

Slowing down and breathing and letting the artwork lead the way.

Giving myself permission to explore and make mistakes, to do the wrong thing and, shock horror, waste materials. A scrap of fabric and a few millilitres of paint. Big wow!

Word(s) for the Year

This is the time that I normally find my word to guide me through the coming year.

A few weeks ago I was certain that it is going to be intent.

I often find myself beginning things or committing myself to projects without gifting myself the time and space to pause and consider, to find out the ramifications and to make sure that I am aligned with everything I need to know before committing to whatever it is. This can take me to places outside of my comfort zone, and not in a good way. I often have a lot of different things going on simultaneously. I do manage to do them all well, but it’s exhausting sometimes!

I felt that the word intent or intention would give me a platform to rest on and to gather all of the information before saying ‘Yes’ or ‘No’ or ‘Not yet’. Then I can proceed with purpose and determination, as well as an awareness of all of my other commitments and ongoing projects.

But intent doesn’t feel quite right.

As I ease my way into this new year of 2023 I find myself wanting to dial back and begin from the place before I even consider setting any intentions and goals. Talking about comfort zones, it is super uncomfortable for me to let myself simply be and to sit where I am. I have an overwhelming urge to prove myself and to get busy doing so.

This year, I am looking for that middle ground between doing nothing and doing too much. What shape will my life take and what is that word?

The slow stitch collage piece that I began in my monthly Slow Stitch and Cake workshop last Saturday gave me a place to begin to put this idea into practice.

This stitching practice is a process of stitch meditation where my desire to plan and compose is satisfied through an intuitive process of choosing colors and shapes of fabric and arranging them on a small square of base fabric. Then I choose a thread color and begin stitching concentric circles from the center outwards. I can change thread colors when it feels right. Of course, I can do any stitch in any direction, but I love circles and the soothingness of radiating outwards from the center.


When I can relax into this process, these are the words that come.

Slow
Trust
Intuitive
Process

Spaciousness


Once again my creativity gently leads me in the direction that I need to be going. Not necessarily where I think I need to be going. I can simply be with this practice and it places me in that sweet spot between ‘not doing’ and ‘doing too much’.

I am holding a workshop this Saturday 28th January, 2023 on Dartmoor, UK called Find your Word for 2023. We will begin with a short reflective exercise to find our word for the year. It may be a focussed goal or a sweet intention or simply an affirming word to carry us through the year.

There are still a couple of spaces left, so do come and join us if you are able!

In the meantime, warmest wishes for the still new year. Stay creative and above all trust the process!